大学的美好英语作文_大学英语作文优美句子

　　Before I was 30 years old, my life was in a mess. I was suffering from autism, depression, and polycystic ovary syndrome, which was not beautiful at all. I wanted to die many times. It was really not easy for me to live up to now. After the age of 30, I just want to live for myself, love myself well, always keep a childlike innocence and interesting soul, follow my heart and live as I like!

　　I don't like to express my feelings in my wechat , because there are too many relatives, friends, leaders and colleagues, so I secretly go to the headlines to vent my emotions or record happy things. There are no friends in the headlines, and fans are all strangers. Most of them are empty zombie fans.

　　When I was depressed, my good friend suggested that I keep a diary to record more of the little beauties in my life, so I would become happier, so the headlines deleted the bad mood and turned it all into a sweet mood.

　　I lived in a family that preferred sons over daughters. In order to have a baby brother, My family told others that I had died. At that time, my mother was still in a coma and was secretly sent to her grandmother's house without drinking a mouthful of milk. At first, she asked my grandmother to take her to hide in my aunt's house in ZheJiang. Later, when I was a little older, my grandmother took her back to Jiangsu, but she still dare to go back. I had to hide at the third and fourth aunts' house firstly, and I didn't go back to my own home until I was almost in primary school. There is already a little brother at home, especially spoiling his younger brother, and the family always revolves around his younger brother. In order to get more love, in front of adults ,I have always been a good girl. In addition to studying hard, I also help the family do housework. Since childhood, I have learned to please others everywhere.I have always been very sensible and obedient. I have never expressed what I want or do not want, what I like, or what I do not like. I only know that it is useless not to say what I want. I must rely on my own efforts to get what I wants, and sometimes I even feel that I will fend for myself like grass. Later, through my own efforts, I was admitted to a better normal university. This age was supposed to be a romantic time when I could enjoy my college life and fall in love, but I was autistic, I was more withdrawn and introverted, I liked to be alone, without sense of security, and worried about being hurt, so I always dared not fall in love. My marriage object is my cousin who grew up together. After all, I have known him since childhood. It is more reliable to have sense of security. When we are about to get married, because my cousin is a doctor, and I am only an undergraduate. His relatives all say that the next generation of children are not smart because of the bad influence of next-of-kin marriage, and that girls with low academic qualifications are not worthy of it. They all advised him to find a wife with high academic qualifications. In fact, it was my cousin who chased me all the time. I didn't say yes to him at first, but later I thought he was very kind to me, so I was with him. But my parents-in-law always thought that my educational background was low and my ability was not good enough for their son. As soon as I got married, my parents-in-law urged me to have a baby. I didn't know that I had polycystic ovary syndrome. I was unable to get pregnant and had a child because of severe irregular menstruation. I saw a lot of traditional Chinese medicine and western medicine in 2016. It is still useless to take traditional Chinese medicine and western medicine all over. My mother-in-law often clamors for a divorce.

　　Because of my weak physique, poor immunity, long-term mental stress and depression, I got depression for the first time. However, I met a distinguished person in my life in 2017. There was a very powerful doctor of traditional Chinese medicine Dr. Xu Boke in Xuxingtang traditional Chinese Medicine Hospital in Shenzhen. I took acupuncture and moxibustion to recuperate my body there. I obviously felt energetic for a period of time, and it seemed that my depression was better. I used to be listless every day, but then I was refreshed and in a good mood; I used to sleep until noon on weekends, but I didn't wake up at noon, but then I woke up naturally before seven o'clock every day; I used to have a poor spleen and stomach, but then my appetite became better; I didn't sweat when I exercised before, but I didn't sweat later; I didn't have menstruation for more than half a year before, and then it gradually became regular, and so on. After almost a year of recuperating my body here, My body has become very good. I thank him from the bottom of my heart. Finally, I went to the fertility department of Peking University Hospital to induce ovulation, and then I got pregnant and gave birth to a boy.

　　Father-in-law and mother-in-law are very happy, I just had a baby, All things are in a mess. There were all kinds of contradictions between my mother and my mother-in-law, and my mother and mother-in-law were very strong. I was out of breath in the middle, My relatives were talking a lot of nonsense. I was always aggrieved and endured everything. I ended up suffering from depression the second time.

　　Later, my mother-in-law always let the baby sleep with her and refused to sleep with me. My mother-in-law always asked me to do housework on the grounds of taking care of the children, so the baby seemed to be closer to his grandmother. I am always used to being patient, so I come home from work to help with the children. I also get up early on weekends to help with a lot of housework and take the children out for a walk. Mother-in-law still likes to point out, picky, strong personality, bad temper, often inexplicable. I was obedient, did not show unhappiness, just accepted it with a smile, and happily said that I would try to do better next time, even if I felt that I had done nothing wrong, and I felt particularly aggrieved. I did not want to have family conflicts and did not want to hurt others. I never express dissatisfaction. I always repress my emotions. I usually blame myself. My mother-in-law rushed to sleep with my child, but she also pointed the finger at the child-rearing aspect, which directly made me empty. She always think that I was useless, and then I suffered from depression for the third time.

　　After the age of 30, I felt that I had matured a lot. I had let go of all the things I couldn't think about before, and I also understood a lot of the great truths of life, and then depression gradually got better. The powerless things in life should be decided, the people who have no chance in life should be given up, and the annoying thoughts in life should be separated. If you treat life affectionately, life will give you a warmth! Be your own sun and illuminate those are depressed and lonely. Don't think about the past, don't worry about the future, live up to the rest of your life, and live in the present!

　　 我三十岁以前，生活过得乱七八糟，一言难尽，患有有孤独症、抑郁症、多囊卵巢综合症，一点也不美好，好多次都想死了算了，我能活到现在真的不容易，三十岁之后，我只想为自己活，好好地爱自己，永葆一颗童心以及有趣的灵魂，追随自己的内心，活成自己喜欢的模样！

　　 我的前半生

　　 我不怎么喜欢在朋友圈发自己的心声和感慨，因为里面的亲朋好友领导同事太多了，所以偷偷到头条来发泄情绪或记录开心的事情，头条没有一个好友，粉丝全部都是陌生人，里面大多都是空号僵尸粉。

　　 我得抑郁症时，好朋友建议我写日记多记录一下生活中的小美好，这样会变得快乐起来，所以头条删掉了坏情绪的状态，全部变成了甜甜的心情。

　　 我生活在一个重男轻女的家庭，那个年代不让生二胎，为了再生个小弟弟，就跟别人说死了。那时我妈妈还在昏迷中，没喝一口奶，就被奶奶偷偷地送到外婆家，一开始让外婆带她到浙江大姨二姨家藏起来。后来我长大点了，外婆才带她回了江苏，可是还是不敢回去，只能先躲到三姨四姨家，等我快上小学了才回到了自己家里。家里面已经有了小弟弟，特别宠弟弟，一家人总是围着弟弟转。为了得到更多的关爱，在大人面前一直是乖乖女，除了好好学习，就是帮着家人干家务活。从小学会察言观色，处处讨好别人，一直都是非常懂事听话，从来不会表达自己想要什么不想要什么，喜欢什么，不喜欢什么，只知道说了也没用不如不说，想要的东西一定要靠自己努力才能得到，有时甚至觉得自己像小草一样自生自灭。后来我通过自己的努力，考上了比较好的师范大学。这个年纪本来是一个可以快快乐乐享受大学生活，尽情谈恋爱的浪漫时光，可是得了孤僻症，我的性格比较孤僻内向，喜欢独来独往，没有安全感，担心受伤害，所以一直不敢谈恋爱。我的结婚对象是一起长大的表哥，毕竟从小就认识，比较靠谱有安全感。可是快结婚了，因为表哥是博士生，而我仅仅是个本科，他的七大姑八大姨们都说近亲结婚不好影响下一代孩子不聪明，而且女孩学历低配不上，纷纷建议他重新找个学历高的老婆。其实一直都是我表哥追我的，我一开始觉得不太好没答应他，后来觉得他对我特别特别好，所以才跟他在一起。可是我公公婆婆一直也觉得我学历低能力弱都配不上儿子，刚结婚公公婆婆就催着生娃，哪知道我有多囊卵巢综合征，月经严重不调没法怀孕生子，2016看了好多中医西医，中药西药吃了个遍还是没用。婆婆经常吵着闹着要我们离婚。

　　 我因为体质比较弱，免疫力差，长期精神压力以及情绪低落，第一次得了抑郁症。不过2017年遇到了人生中的贵人，深圳徐兴堂中医馆有一个很牛逼的中医徐波克博士，我在那里吃中药针灸调理身体，针灸一段时间明显感觉好有精神，貌似抑郁症也好些了。以前天天无精打采，有气无力，后来神清气爽，心情舒畅；以前一到周末睡到中午睡不醒起来也没精神，后来每天七点不到就自然醒了；以前脾胃差，后来胃口也变好了；以前锻炼不出汗，后来也出汗了；以前月经大半年也不来，后来渐渐也变得规律了等等。在徐博这里调理身体前前后后差不多一年，身体变得特别特别好，发自内心特别感谢他。最后我到北大医院生殖科打了促排卵，后来就怀孕了，还生了个男孩。

　　 公公婆婆都很开心，可是坐月子又是一堆乱七八糟的破事儿。娘家和婆家各种各样矛盾，妈妈和婆婆都特别强势谁也不让谁，我压在中间喘不过气来，七大姑八大姨们又是扯一大堆废话，我总是委屈求全，什么都隐忍着，结果第二次又得了抑郁症。

　　 再后来婆婆总是让宝宝跟她睡，一直不让跟我睡，婆婆以带孩子为由，总是让我干家务活，所以宝宝貌似跟奶奶更亲。我不争不抢，总是习惯忍让，所以下班回到家帮忙干活带娃，周末也是早早起来帮忙做好多家务活，带娃出去哈皮溜达。婆婆还是喜欢指指点点，挑三拣四，性格强势，脾气也不好，常常莫名其妙。我顺从听话，没有表现出不开心，只是笑嘻嘻地接受，还乐呵呵地表示下次会努力做得更好，即使觉得自己并没有做错，心里特别委屈，不想家庭闹矛盾，不愿伤害他人，从来不会表达不满，总是压抑情绪，委屈自己，成全别人。婆婆抢着把孩子跟她睡，育儿方面也是指指点点，直接把我架空了，总是认为我一无是处，后来又第三次得了抑郁症。

　　 三十岁后我感觉自己成熟了很多，以前想不开的事情全想开了，也明白了很多人生的大道理，后来抑郁症也渐渐地就好了。生命中无能为力的事当断，生命中无缘的人当舍，生命中烦欲的杂念当离。你若深情对待生活，生活必还你一份温暖！做自己的太阳，照亮那些沮丧和落寞。不念过去，不畏将来，不负余生，活在当下！